BMI 17.4

Today i finally reached the BMI of 17.4...when i was diagnosed with EDNOS the only criterion of Anorexia Nervosa I didnt meet was that my BMI was above 17.5. Now it is below. And im next seeing my GP in another 2 weeks so it'll be even lower.

Ive had my ED for years and i'd lose lots of weight in short space of time but then gain it again as soon as weekend from boarding school came or as soon as holidays came and i gave in to the guilt trip from Mum. I know for you hardcore anorexics that is hard to believe, but back then it seemed so hard to stay on track when family members wanted me to eat.

Now ive fallen out with all my friends and boyfriend and upset my Mum terribly, all because i know this comes first in my life, i want to be thin.

Anyway, point of me saying all that is that when i used to lose lots but then put some back on,my goal was always to reach a BMI of 17.5 because i felt then i would know i couldnt be fat because clinically it can mean anorexia.

Now my BMI is 17.4 i feel fatter than ever. I took some photos this morning in the hope id look different in them than in the mirror but no i look just as fat.

Are my scales laughing at me? Im the fattest anorexic in the world.